“I wish I were dead,” Jana murmurs as she slams her locker shut – then quickly looks around to make sure no one heard.
If she were to disappear tomorrow, think about it. He would never need to see her face again. Eventually, they’ll stop accusing him of “slumming it” and her of being a … never mind. He’ll never need to explain again how she was “not bad to look at” but “pathetic if she thought she meant anything to him.”
They say people learn, but that isn’t true. School isn’t for learning, not to them. It’s all about getting on the right team, being seen with the right people. Quick, check to see if anyone else is laughing. Then, join in. Come on. It was just a joke. What’s your problem?
Yeah, it’s the same old joke over and over: the geek who thinks she can be a queen.
Tears welling up in her eyes, Jana rushes to the bathroom. On her way, she clasps the crucifix around her neck, snapping the chain with a violent tug. If only they would torture and kill her like in the old days, then at least it would be over. At least then it would be over.
She’s going to be late for class. But, she will not let them see her cry.
She will not let them see her.
Can’t decide which version of Sanctuary I like more. Love Utada Hikaru’s stripped down voice on first one, but love the Kingdom Heart anime opener. This one is for all my geeky JRPG/fantasy friends, who helped me to survive high school. I don’t remember most of your names now, but that’s okay. You are still my sanctuary that I visit when I need it most, when I need to remember that it is okay to be – and to think – different from “mundanes” aka the cool/normal people. ❤ I keep reminding myself: I had a lot of long-distance friends, way before it was cool. Back when Internet was dial-up and expensive, so we mostly used landlines and letters to talk. ❤ Now, everyone is doing it, and that’s okay too. We did it first, because we had to. ❤