Dear God, There are two things that really bother me right now: writing and loneliness. It’s hard feeling so very alone like all the time. I know what you’re going to say: Foxes have dens, et cetera, but … so many of my fellow believers have their places, their tribes. They get titles and positions. […]
Everyone messes up sometimes. Even me. Sometimes, I mess up more than once in a single day. That’s why today I’m going to talk about mantras. In Hindu mysticism, mantra refers to a sound, a series of words, that can help to clear your mind. It’s basically about introducing good voices into your head. It […]
In the midst of this busy world, I’m assaulted daily – by ads, by social media, by voices I barely even recognize. Trying to get inside people’s heads, to get us to buy things and value things, to think a certain way, there’s literally a whole industry dedicated to this. It’s called marketing. I’ve found […]
As I was writing down these reflections, I was trying to think if this felt more like one of my crazier journal entries or a series of blog posts. (As you can see, I decided on blog posts.) Until you finish a work, you can’t know for sure where it’s going, so it would be […]
Here’s another thing about “hearing voices” that you are pretty sure are not yours. Sometimes, they tell you to do things that don’t make a lot of sense at the time, but later you find out why – and then it’s like … oh, that’s why. Even if you don’t believe other people sometimes *just […]
Dear God, As you will recall, heavenly Father, I used to have this other blog series, where I wrote increasingly pointed letters to God my Spouse aka Yeshua aka Jesus, about the state of affairs, about where was God anyway. Every now and again, people ask me if I still blog. I stopped – for […]
If there is one single group of people that has tended to stomp on my sense of self-worth and my belief in God, it has been members of the organized religious community. For the most part, atheists and agnostics and members of small religious communities are perfectly okay to nod agreeably. As long as I’m […]
*Trigger Warning* This post has SUI references. . . . . . . When I was 14, I voluntarily committed myself to a mental hospital. This isn’t something I put at the top of my resume. If it ever comes up, I often find myself glancing around to make sure no one is listening. Looking […]
True confession: I don’t see dead people, and I don’t hear audible voices, but I do “hear voices” in the sense of thoughts that are not mine, that suddenly appear like a dream in my mind. A lot of people will say that I am crazy and nuts. There are drugs and treatments for people […]
Like many people, I’m still adjusting to the reality that I’ve been stuck in my house for the past couple of months and … rituals have been hard to keep. This past week, I finally accepted that my “real/regular job” isn’t coming back any time in the foreseeable future. I started to do what I […]
Anne Higa 