J – Just Kidding

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Here is my entry for Day 11 of the A-Z Challenge.

J – Just Kidding

I was only kidding, we whispered, too little, too late after her funeral, over her grave. So young, only sixteen, beautiful, vivacious & perhaps too free in her affections.

Months afterward, I used to lay awake at night, wondering if at prom her ghost might come back to take vengeance on us all like in the movies, which might just be fitting.

Just kidding.

What we did was wrong, the rumors, the gossip, slut-shaming, those stupid internet posts, the jokes. I want to say I feel terrible,feel guilty but I have to go on with my life. If there were any justice in this world, maybe I would be the one who was dead, but

I don’t actually know what it would be like to want to die. I just don’t know. I just don’t.

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Kind of a downer,  sorry. Hope you have a good weekend, we’re going to see the cherry blossom festival parade today and kind of half-awake but determined to get something out. Blessed be!